Almost-Mother’s Day

Mother's Day is tough for the mother-in-waiting (wanting?). Not that the other 364 days a year that you suffer from infertility are a whole lot easier. But as many in the world count down to that special Sunday (May 13 where I am), it gets harder to ignore the gnawing feeling in my belly (it's not … Continue reading Almost-Mother’s Day

Read: IVF Failure Is Devastating And More Common Than You Think

This piece by clinical psychologist Elizabeth Merill got my attention today. I feel her pain acutely. You go into IVF brimming with hope. You do all the research and most times, you tightly grip on to the positive odds. Even if - at the back of your mind - you realise that this may not work, that … Continue reading Read: IVF Failure Is Devastating And More Common Than You Think

The Rainbow Connection

I am headed into the lab today to drop off the paperwork and samples to kick off the upcoming cycle. I had been feeling somewhat tentative this time around (few people talk about being "fifth time lucky"), waiting to start "feeling it". Outside my window, there is a sun shower, which is probably one of … Continue reading The Rainbow Connection

“Just try and relax”

Our friends in the US are marking National Infertility Awareness Week (April 22-28), and a number of women in an IVF support group to which I belong have been posting about being the "1 in 8" and the need to 'flip the script' on infertility. I admire them - going public about your infertility is … Continue reading “Just try and relax”

Going social

So - and possibly against my better judgement - I'm now on Facebook. This is in part to give my posts a little bit more reach (even if I have exactly no friends yet - not because I am a social idiot, but because I don't want to be friends with my actual friends - see Covert … Continue reading Going social

If you read one thing today…

When someone so artfully combines narrative and visual storytelling, humour, and pain, it simply has to be shared: Read Expecting by Lucy Grove-Jones. I love how she's captured her story, and went 'yes yes yes!' and then 'no, no no!' more than a couple of times. Whether you've experienced loss or fertility issues, near died in anticipation from one … Continue reading If you read one thing today…

Covert operations

It's been just over a week since I started documenting my IVF journey again, and it has been great to connect with some of the other women/IVF-ers on this platform (and other writers in general), reading their stories and poetry, looking at pictures of their children, husbands, their everyday lives... It begs the question of … Continue reading Covert operations

Do you ever forget?

This quote (seen on Awakening Wildflower) stopped me in my tracks this morning. “A miscarriage is a natural and common event. All told, probably more women have lost a child from this world than haven’t. Most don’t mention it, and they go from day to day as if it hadn’t happened, so people imagine a woman … Continue reading Do you ever forget?

Poking around with TCM

About to enter the prickly pre-cycle phase (meeting my acupuncturist tomorrow), and coincidentally caught a discussion on one of my chat groups about Traditional Chinese Medicine and fertility. Much has already been written on the subject, but I thought I would capture my five favourite TCM tips for anyone who's been wondering about adding to … Continue reading Poking around with TCM

Hard habits to break

Back in the home zone, and T-15 to the start of the cycle. But I'm struggling with a couple of things - cutting down on coffee, for one, and sugar, for another, plus a long list of other things I had a much easier time leaving go of in previous cycles. I'm not sure why … Continue reading Hard habits to break