It's not about trying to trust myself, it's about convincing myself that I should.
This quote popped up on a couple of my feeds and dragged me out of the hole I had been hiding in. It strikes close to the heart, especially as an unwilling resident of the Land of the Infertile. It is a noisy place, often filled with a cacophony of baseless assumptions, unsolicited advice and … Continue reading Choices
I'm psyching myself up for my next FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer) in August and, of course, have been frantically consulting my doc (and Dr Google) on the odds are and how to better them). Of course, the stock answer from the former is consistently "zilch", but I thought I would share what I've found online … Continue reading Frozen (the non-Disney version)
“Whether a hawk, an eagle or a tiny hummingbird, all birds awaken a sense of wonder and enchantment by their ability to fly. They remind us that we all can rise above our circumstances. They are the ultimate symbols of transcendence.” ~ Ted Andrews, Animal Speak: The Spiritual & Magical Powers of Creatures Great and Small … Continue reading When dreams take flight
Michael Phelps aroused global curiosity about cupping during Rio 2016 (and made circular hickies cool), and Jennifer Anniston and Lady Gaga apparently embrace it too. That makes them all bloody crazy because cupping, a form of a Traditional Chinese Medicine that involves using glass suction cups to create a vacuum that sucks your soul out through … Continue reading Suck it up?
"Oh I might have to wait I'll never give up I guess it's half timing and the other half's luck Wherever you are Whenever it's right You'll come out of nowhere and into my life" - Micheal Bublé, Haven't Met You Yet I have a little ritual. Ahead of each cycle, I put together a … Continue reading Soundtrack for a cycle
So Monday brought with it the worst possible flu - which I assure you is among the shittiest things that can possibly happen four days before you are due to start stimming (especially given this rendition of the Battle of Stalingrad going on in my head). Cue: panic from all quarters on the fate of … Continue reading Slow down. Bump Ahead…
We’re on the cusp of IVF #5. And however much I want to believe that I have gained mastery over the anxiety and side effects that each cycle brings, that's a bunch of bollocks. And he knows.
I am headed into the lab today to drop off the paperwork and samples to kick off the upcoming cycle. I had been feeling somewhat tentative this time around (few people talk about being "fifth time lucky"), waiting to start "feeling it". Outside my window, there is a sun shower, which is probably one of … Continue reading The Rainbow Connection