Post-retrieval treat: DOUBLE-shot cappuccino. Ola caffeine my old friend (no judging). Numbers game: 23 eggs retrieved. "Some big, some small" was all the embryologist would say, though she promises to play the embryos music to help them along. Holding breath until we hear back on a few details in 24 hours. Well, holding breath and … Continue reading It’s good to be bad
I'm at a 'cusp of something' moment: I did my trigger shot last night and the retrieval is tomorrow. More bloated/uncomfortable than previous cycles and doc's a tad concerned about Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome (OHSS), but I'm hoping that its close enough to the border for it to be a non-event. I am currently giving the girls their final … Continue reading Ms Egg, meet Mr Sperm
I've been hiding. "Quiet" seemed like a suitable setting given the combination of both Mother's Day and a bad case of the jitters following my cycle start, which led to nightmares about vacant ovaries, my exes, and black bear attacks in New York (not all in the same night, although that could have made for a … Continue reading Why, hello there!
So the cycle is a go (Cue: fireworks and marching bands). After a quick look under the hood (thin lining and happy ovaries on Day 2) I started on Gonal-F (Follitropin Alfa) and Pergoveris (Follitropin Alfa + Lutropin Alfa) shots today. My next scan is on Tuesday, at which point we will find out if … Continue reading Shoot ’em up
Mother's Day is tough for the mother-in-waiting (wanting?). Not that the other 364 days a year that you suffer from infertility are a whole lot easier. But as many in the world count down to that special Sunday (May 13 where I am), it gets harder to ignore the gnawing feeling in my belly (it's not … Continue reading Almost-Mother’s Day
Day two of the three-day quote challenge I was tagged in. It's just a bit of fun, and a chance to share some of the wisdom we've encountered (#1 is here). Anyway, these are the game rules: Thank the person who nominated you. [Thanks, Amy from Awakening Wildflower. Everyone, do check out her blog, it's … Continue reading In other words: A three-day quote challenge #2
This piece by clinical psychologist Elizabeth Merill got my attention today. I feel her pain acutely. You go into IVF brimming with hope. You do all the research and most times, you tightly grip on to the positive odds. Even if - at the back of your mind - you realise that this may not work, that … Continue reading Read: IVF Failure Is Devastating And More Common Than You Think
I am headed into the lab today to drop off the paperwork and samples to kick off the upcoming cycle. I had been feeling somewhat tentative this time around (few people talk about being "fifth time lucky"), waiting to start "feeling it". Outside my window, there is a sun shower, which is probably one of … Continue reading The Rainbow Connection
"Infertility is mostly sad. There are moments that you sort of have to laugh or appreciate the ridiculousness of a situation, but at the end of the day, infertility is awful." - Christine McDonough, Infertility Illustrated. Monday. T-10 (probably) to shots and a bit of a mixed-up mess, which has made it a little hard … Continue reading Check out: Infertility Illustrated
T-21 days to IVF Cycle 5. But first, a little us time.