Not-Mother’s Day

The ads are popping up everywhere - the celebration of the most important lady in most lives: the one who gave you life. The most important job in the world. It is a weekend to Mother's Day where I am, and everyone is being urged to celebrate the moment with flowers, chocolates, stuffed bears, and … Continue reading Not-Mother’s Day

On loop: Fix You (Coldplay)

When you try your best but you don't succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse When the tears come streaming down your face 'Cause you lose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to … Continue reading On loop: Fix You (Coldplay)

Review: Private Life (Netflix)

Finally got around to watching the much-acclaimed Private Life on Netflix. And if you're struggling with infertility, and looking for movies, books, anything that will help demystify your experience and make you feel even slightly better, and chance upon it, my honest advice is not to watch it. This isn't the right movie for you … Continue reading Review: Private Life (Netflix)

When I grow up…

I've been mulling over what it will mean if we are never successful in our quest to have children, and all ideas I ever had about what my future would look like are short-circuited: There would be no first steps or first words No messy diaper changes or stroller wheels broken by European cobblestones No … Continue reading When I grow up…

Ten things your infertile friend may not have told you

If you know someone going through IVF, it might feel tricky trying to tippy-toe around the issue. Here are some things I wish I could just come out and tell some of the people around me: 1. You don't have to bubble wrap conversations, but be mindful of the kinds of things you say: She … Continue reading Ten things your infertile friend may not have told you

Christmas …

Merry Christmas everyone! It certainly has been a while. I had to press the pause button on the baby plans for a bit. Got felled by the flu and it was a long drawn nightmare. Thankfully, I was close enough to 90% to put together a Christmas Eve countdown and a Christmas Day dinner, and … Continue reading Christmas …

A song for today

A Million Dreams: Because I needed a lift, and also because I found The Greatest Showman Reimagined album. This video of Pink recording the song (and the reprise) with her daughter also made my heart melt (and break a little). Incidentally, this song has been a part of pretty much every IVF playlist¬†I have made … Continue reading A song for today

Choices

This quote popped up on a couple of my feeds and dragged me out of the hole I had been hiding in. It strikes close to the heart, especially as an unwilling resident of the Land of the Infertile. It is a noisy place, often filled with a cacophony of baseless assumptions, unsolicited advice and … Continue reading Choices