Game Over

So my HCG level fell today, to 34 mIU/ml. The doctor believes it is an early miscarriage, but would like me to continue with progesterone support until a repeat blood test on Saturday, because my HCG levels are still positive. I’m not sure whose benefit that is for or what kind of purpose that serves beyond … Continue reading Game Over

“Behave you two!”

He grabbed his lunch bag and headed for the door, and then turned back to give me a quick kiss before glancing at my bloated belly and quipping: "Behave you two." This, from my usually overly-cautious husband this morning. The only other time he's ever acknowledged the period between transfer and testing (in other ways … Continue reading “Behave you two!”

Squirt on Board

**Not sure what happened with WordPress. But a very garbled version of this post went up. Reposting and hopefully, this makes more sense now! Had our embryo transfer on Saturday and here she (he??) is... We ended up transferring a Day 4 compacting morula, which our embryologist was fairly convinced was on its way into … Continue reading Squirt on Board

The Numbers Game

Our Day Two Fertilisation Report is in. It is... less mind-blowing that we hoped. I guess I was right to stop myself from some kind of unicorns-farting-rainbows post yesterday after hearing that 17 of the 23 eggs retrieved were mature and 14 had fertilised. Those were the best numbers we had ever seen. Even my embryologist and acupuncturist … Continue reading The Numbers Game

It’s good to be bad

Post-retrieval treat: DOUBLE-shot cappuccino. Ola caffeine my old friend (no judging). Numbers game: 23 eggs retrieved. "Some big, some small" was all the embryologist would say, though she promises to play the embryos music to help them along. Holding breath until we hear back on a few details in 24 hours. Well, holding breath and … Continue reading It’s good to be bad

Ms Egg, meet Mr Sperm

I'm at a 'cusp of something' moment: I did my trigger shot last night and the retrieval is tomorrow. More bloated/uncomfortable than previous cycles and doc's a tad concerned about Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome (OHSS), but I'm hoping that its close enough to the border for it to be a non-event. I am currently giving the girls their final … Continue reading Ms Egg, meet Mr Sperm

Why, hello there!

I've been hiding. "Quiet" seemed like a suitable setting given the combination of both Mother's Day and a bad case of the jitters following my cycle start, which led to nightmares about vacant ovaries, my exes, and black bear attacks in New York (not all in the same night, although that could have made for a … Continue reading Why, hello there!

Shoot ’em up

So the cycle is a go (Cue: fireworks and marching bands). After a quick look under the hood (thin lining and happy ovaries on Day 2) I started on Gonal-F (Follitropin Alfa) and Pergoveris (Follitropin Alfa + Lutropin Alfa) shots today. My next scan is on Tuesday, at which point we will find out if … Continue reading Shoot ’em up

Almost-Mother’s Day

Mother's Day is tough for the mother-in-waiting (wanting?). Not that the other 364 days a year that you suffer from infertility are a whole lot easier. But as many in the world count down to that special Sunday (May 13 where I am), it gets harder to ignore the gnawing feeling in my belly (it's not … Continue reading Almost-Mother’s Day

When dreams take flight

“Whether a hawk, an eagle or a tiny hummingbird, all birds awaken a sense of wonder and enchantment by their ability to fly. They remind us that we all can rise above our circumstances. They are the ultimate symbols of transcendence.” ~ Ted Andrews, Animal Speak: The Spiritual & Magical Powers of Creatures Great and Small … Continue reading When dreams take flight