IVF - and infertility - wasn’t a single, powerful strike to the head. It was a debilitating and progressive body blow.
The ads are popping up everywhere - the celebration of the most important lady in most lives: the one who gave you life. The most important job in the world. It is a weekend to Mother's Day where I am, and everyone is being urged to celebrate the moment with flowers, chocolates, stuffed bears, and … Continue reading Not-Mother’s Day
When you try your best but you don't succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse When the tears come streaming down your face 'Cause you lose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to … Continue reading On loop: Fix You (Coldplay)
Finally got around to watching the much-acclaimed Private Life on Netflix. And if you're struggling with infertility, and looking for movies, books, anything that will help demystify your experience and make you feel even slightly better, and chance upon it, my honest advice is not to watch it. This isn't the right movie for you … Continue reading Review: Private Life (Netflix)
The Sound of Heartbreak by Nikita Gill It is eerily terrifying that there is no sound when a heart breaks. Car accidents end with a bang, falling ends with a thud, even writing makes the scratching sound of pencil against paper. But the sound of a heart breaking is completely silent. Almost as though no … Continue reading The Sound of Heartbreak
I've been mulling over what it will mean if we are never successful in our quest to have children, and all ideas I ever had about what my future would look like are short-circuited: There would be no first steps or first words No messy diaper changes or stroller wheels broken by European cobblestones No … Continue reading When I grow up…
If you know someone going through IVF, it might feel tricky trying to tippy-toe around the issue. Here are some things I wish I could just come out and tell some of the people around me: 1. You don't have to bubble wrap conversations, but be mindful of the kinds of things you say: She … Continue reading Ten things your infertile friend may not have told you
Merry Christmas everyone! It certainly has been a while. I had to press the pause button on the baby plans for a bit. Got felled by the flu and it was a long drawn nightmare. Thankfully, I was close enough to 90% to put together a Christmas Eve countdown and a Christmas Day dinner, and … Continue reading Christmas …
It's not about trying to trust myself, it's about convincing myself that I should.