IVF - and infertility - wasn’t a single, powerful strike to the head. It was a debilitating and progressive body blow.
One of the biggest issues for women going through IVF (or at least the ones I know) is how isolating it all feels. You struggle with feeling like a failure as a woman and human being. You view the "you had one job" memes differently when you're can't fulfill your basic biological destiny. You're stuck … Continue reading On dark places
And a quiet goodbye. CW
Quickly chiming in from the other end of the world after a crazy number of plane rides (blame summer prices) and way too much bad airplane food. We're in the motherland visiting the in-laws, and so begins a little time with family, nature, and some quiet from everyday life. Including... nah, perhaps especially... assisted baby-making … Continue reading Change in scenery
“Whether a hawk, an eagle or a tiny hummingbird, all birds awaken a sense of wonder and enchantment by their ability to fly. They remind us that we all can rise above our circumstances. They are the ultimate symbols of transcendence.” ~ Ted Andrews, Animal Speak: The Spiritual & Magical Powers of Creatures Great and Small … Continue reading When dreams take flight
"Oh I might have to wait I'll never give up I guess it's half timing and the other half's luck Wherever you are Whenever it's right You'll come out of nowhere and into my life" - Micheal Bublé, Haven't Met You Yet I have a little ritual. Ahead of each cycle, I put together a … Continue reading Soundtrack for a cycle
So Monday brought with it the worst possible flu - which I assure you is among the shittiest things that can possibly happen four days before you are due to start stimming (especially given this rendition of the Battle of Stalingrad going on in my head). Cue: panic from all quarters on the fate of … Continue reading Slow down. Bump Ahead…
We’re on the cusp of IVF #5. And however much I want to believe that I have gained mastery over the anxiety and side effects that each cycle brings, that's a bunch of bollocks. And he knows.
Okay, so here's something a little different. I've been looking for new and interesting fertility food mash-ups, especially with barely a week to go before stims. And there are only so many times you can eat smashed avocado on toast (even if a nice 'elevated' version can be found here). Anyway, if you're looking for a quick … Continue reading It Hass to be done (Recipe)
I am headed into the lab today to drop off the paperwork and samples to kick off the upcoming cycle. I had been feeling somewhat tentative this time around (few people talk about being "fifth time lucky"), waiting to start "feeling it". Outside my window, there is a sun shower, which is probably one of … Continue reading The Rainbow Connection