The Numbers Game

Our Day Two Fertilisation Report is in. It is... less mind-blowing that we hoped. I guess I was right to stop myself from some kind of unicorns-farting-rainbows post yesterday after hearing that 17 of the 23 eggs retrieved were mature and 14 had fertilised. Those were the best numbers we had ever seen. Even my embryologist and acupuncturist … Continue reading The Numbers Game

It’s good to be bad

Post-retrieval treat: DOUBLE-shot cappuccino. Ola caffeine my old friend (no judging). Numbers game: 23 eggs retrieved. "Some big, some small" was all the embryologist would say, though she promises to play the embryos music to help them along. Holding breath until we hear back on a few details in 24 hours. Well, holding breath and … Continue reading It’s good to be bad

Ms Egg, meet Mr Sperm

I'm at a 'cusp of something' moment: I did my trigger shot last night and the retrieval is tomorrow. More bloated/uncomfortable than previous cycles and doc's a tad concerned about Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome (OHSS), but I'm hoping that its close enough to the border for it to be a non-event. I am currently giving the girls their final … Continue reading Ms Egg, meet Mr Sperm

Why, hello there!

I've been hiding. "Quiet" seemed like a suitable setting given the combination of both Mother's Day and a bad case of the jitters following my cycle start, which led to nightmares about vacant ovaries, my exes, and black bear attacks in New York (not all in the same night, although that could have made for a … Continue reading Why, hello there!

Shoot ’em up

So the cycle is a go (Cue: fireworks and marching bands). After a quick look under the hood (thin lining and happy ovaries on Day 2) I started on Gonal-F (Follitropin Alfa) and Pergoveris (Follitropin Alfa + Lutropin Alfa) shots today. My next scan is on Tuesday, at which point we will find out if … Continue reading Shoot ’em up

Almost-Mother’s Day

Mother's Day is tough for the mother-in-waiting (wanting?). Not that the other 364 days a year that you suffer from infertility are a whole lot easier. But as many in the world count down to that special Sunday (May 13 where I am), it gets harder to ignore the gnawing feeling in my belly (it's not … Continue reading Almost-Mother’s Day

When dreams take flight

“Whether a hawk, an eagle or a tiny hummingbird, all birds awaken a sense of wonder and enchantment by their ability to fly. They remind us that we all can rise above our circumstances. They are the ultimate symbols of transcendence.” ~ Ted Andrews, Animal Speak: The Spiritual & Magical Powers of Creatures Great and Small … Continue reading When dreams take flight

Suck it up?

Michael Phelps aroused global curiosity about cupping during Rio 2016 (and made circular hickies cool), and Jennifer Anniston and Lady Gaga apparently embrace it too. That makes them all bloody crazy because cupping, a form of a Traditional Chinese Medicine that involves using glass suction cups to create a vacuum that sucks your soul out through … Continue reading Suck it up?

Shared post: How to Plan a Pregnancy IVF Style

Too good not to share, via The Not So Fertile Goddess: How to plan a pregnancy IVF style: Step 13: Embryo Transfer "You and your partner will stare intently at the ultrasound screen to watch as this tiny embryo is inserted through a long catheter into your uterus. Your RE will point out the spot … Continue reading Shared post: How to Plan a Pregnancy IVF Style

Soundtrack for a cycle

"Oh I might have to wait I'll never give up I guess it's half timing and the other half's luck Wherever you are Whenever it's right You'll come out of nowhere and into my life" - Micheal Bublé, Haven't Met You Yet I have a little ritual. Ahead of each cycle, I put together a … Continue reading Soundtrack for a cycle